Leaving.

A few of my college friends are leaving for good this time

and one of them is of course the girl that I am really close with since I knew her 3 years + ago

in Taylor's. I still remember the day that we said hi and how we end up being so close within these few years

and more importantly, we're from both different places. 

She's from Kuching and I guess it is fated that we're friends as we met in KL and got closer because 

we enjoy each other's accompany all the time whether its in college or the weekends.

We were close to the extend that our parents knew each other's parents, including Denise's 

and we often had dinners together whenever it is possible.

I still remember the day all our parents chit-chatted with each other at Bev's dad shop in KK talking about their pasts while us youngsters gathered at one table at the corner trying to catch what our parents are talking about. Good times :)

How fast time flies.

Bev went back to Kuching right after our higher diploma final exam so I didn't get the chance to see her again until yesterday.

So along with a few others- Denise & SioSen we met up with Ray and Jeff who are also leaving us soon.

Technically, Bev is leaving with Jeff this coming Thursday to Switzerland.

Jeff was there since after Diploma so its good to catch up again. I think he changed a lot.

Ray, who is another friend of mine from Tourism class is leaving to UK in 2 weeks time.

Well it's really sad to see them go, especially when they are so close to you but you know it's also for their own good and you'll always wish them the best.

& because I believe, every hello always ends with a goodbye.

In a way or so,

we will still meet again in the future.

that's about it for now (:

Such angels.

Totally not expecting this.

Bah these people can be such angels!

I miss you guys too,

Will see you all around soon =)))

Daddy.

Happy Father's Day to the awesome-ss Daddy.

Daddykin,

Thanks for showering us with your endless care and love since we were young.

21 years have gone by and I still love you the same Daddy.

I miss going out with you to church on Sundays.

And of course, the shoppings after mass.

Its always a father daughter session every sunday.

Hope you'll have a great one with Mum & Bro today :)

Sorry that your daughters are not there with you to celebrate.

But I'll see you soon, real soon :)

Misses all of you back home.

Love,

Elaine.

:)

These two days I am the healthiest person alive.
Yesterday I walked 11 floors of stairs
even though I'm at my worst condition.

Today,
My one and only meal that I thought I could have rice,
was ruined.
All I ate was bitter ground vegetable withOUT rice.

It's so bitter I tell you.
I wasn't smiling as broad as I did in that picture up there anymore.


Ahh.


&

Jesse Barrera played come to my door as I've requested live earlier this morning via blogtv.
I'm a happy girl :)

if you don't know who is he...

this is him.

Unspoken.

No Warning.

Gossip Girls & Guys.

“ They can just say what ever they want to say , its up to them. Who are you to judge when you don’t even know me . I would just say, bring it on cause I don’t give a damn :) ”

All I Ever Wanted.

I had a wonderful night with the babes at The Curve , Damansara last night.
Had our dinner at Italiannes, food was alright as usual
but the service was really bad, my food came in slow and the waiting was long.
Till I canceled my order then the waiter came with my dinner :S
Oh well.

Soups for starter.

Cosy ambience.

Casablanca

Love the caption.

Main courses

& the whole streets of The Curve looked like this , it was really pretty.
The flea market was there till about 11-ish.
We went to Starbucks after it closed.
I almost die of inhaling cigarettes fumes from all the people around me there.
Can even feel that the breathing difficulty problem is taking place.

and I really liked the flower arch.

It says " To Mum , with love. "

Dear Mummy,
Happy Mother's Day.
Sorry for not being there with you on this special day of yours.
I hope that you'll have a blast with them family at home today :)


x.o.x.o
Elaine.

I'm done.

Okay I'm not in the mood to like do everything.
I kinda just completed my whole report after doing it for months,
you know like MONTHS.
and a lot of difficulties in doing it.
Till the very last week,
my Facebook , MSN & Twitter is flooded with the word T.I.S.
Everyone is like complaining everyday.
AND
the trend now is everyone had to skip either 3 classes minimum per person this week.
Either that, or just don't come at all for 1 WHOLE week.
You get like only 3 persons attending a class of 50+ persons.
or even better, 20 students attending a class of 200 persons.
and lecturers will automatically cancel their classes cause they know nobody will come.
Slept for maximum 5 hours a day for the whole week
including lifeless weekends at home doing report from morning till night.
Just to finish that goddamn 55 pages of report.

and what's amazing?
You get lecturers who are understanding enough to not scold or nag or whatsoever
when you're absent for their class, late for their class, or even not concentrating in their lectures.
Cause of the beautiful T.I.S ( This Is Shit- Technical Industrial Study) because
whatever the lecturer was lecturing especially during revision classes for them case studies,
everything we have in mind will be about T.I.S and won't bother to discuss anything but
T.I.S!

Finally,
Just when I thought everything is okay,
there are tons of problems with printing.
Hopefully, I'm over that phase after tomorrow.
I'm done with it.

Really tired right now,
and I have like a presentation which I have yet to prepare tomorrow :(

I really can't wait for the weekends.

oh and a nice video that is really, creative.



nuff'rants.
Till then.

Cause I wished ,

" oh you , take me the way I am. "

&

" I know what you're thinking. "

Feel

1 down , 6 more to go.

yes final exam is back.

6 more days till I'm going back.

exam mood gotten into me?

not.

Sigh. Help me.

Maybe we can run , but...

Slow Motion.

Why can't I love you in slow motion?

Take my time.

Take away the pressure.

Why can't I?

What you lost .

You always gained something in return of something you didn't have.

so when things don't turn your way ,
look at it in a different way.

Happy Twenty - TEN!

I've made the point , to forgive everyone on this day.
to the ones that hurt me in a way or another.
to the ones that took me for granted .
the ones that ...

& I'm asking for forgiveness .
to the ones that I've hurt .
to the ones that I might have took for granted .
to the ones that I've disappointed in a way or another .
to the ones that I didn't get to say goodbye , or even just be there when you needed me.

just wanted to say , eventhough I may have not showed my presence ,
know that I'll always be there when you need me .

The past .
No matter what , I'm moving on .
I'm determined .

Time to fulfill my other dreams.

The present .
I'm sorry if I can't be who you all want me to be.
(because I don't live for people , I live for myself. )
But , I'll try my best to change myself to be a better me .
A wiser one hopefully as I'm turning 21 .
(This goes particularly to anyone out there , my family - friends .)

Thankful .
for every moment . every events . every happenings .
( even the unexpected ones )

I'm glad it made me a stronger person than who I am today .

Though ,
it wasn't easy to get through this year

& if it wasn't for the people that walked into my life ,
( my family , my friends - you guys know who you are )

I won't be who I am today .

So ,

Thanks for the memories .

I'll treasure them all.

Its time to embark on a new journey .

A new beginning & new chapter of life .

It's been a great year .




Happy twenty - ten everyone !
:)

Moodswings.

There is always this gap that I'm feeling.

Why are we created differently ,

but not equally the same?

cause if we're all the same , there will be no problems at all?

Have you ever?

Have you ever

felt like you wanted to buy something that cost you a sum of $ ,

yet your heart is so undecisive because you just don't know if its the wrong decision?

I'm facing that kind of problem now .

I'm actually kinda scared to make decisions whenever if concern a large sum of $ .

Moreover , its not from my pocket .

So if anything happens , I will always feel very guilty .

Dilemma for spending so much $ & at times wish that I have a job or actually work right now so that I can use my own $ to buy the things I wanted to buy without feeling bad if anything bad happens to it .

Sighs. Oh well.

xx

Went for laptop hunting today .

I'm still undecided despite going through so many laptops .

The specs and the prices at times confuses me much.

and I don't know whether what I'm going to pay for is it worth the price of what am I buying.

such dilemmas.

I hate to make decisions.

Even the colours of it .

probably will get a new lappy by tommorow .

xx

The White Elegance party @ Bed is tonight .

decided not to go :)

xx

ciao.

Did someone just cursed me or something?

Well I've been trying to blog lately but due to reasons like this :
1) everyone's busy so I couldn't get pictures
2) i just don't feel like going out lately and there's basically nothing much to blog about
3) both my lappy & my desktop crashed . Yesterday.

History 1 .

Lappy crashed more than 4543654 times already , I just dunno whats the problem anymore but I was told that , this time it is the motherboard. I've encountered the same problem since a year ago.

Changed the motherboard a year ago and now the same problem again.

had the lappy for only 2 years now.

Really sucked big time cause I've lots of stuffs in there , which I stupidly didn't save in my portable harddisk . ALL my recent pictures & songs . Kill me already . Sigh .

History 2.

Same goes for my desktop.

Well , I've only used Hewlette Packard all these while but all these problems keep coming in.

Reformatted and fixed gazillion time , now I'm thinking whether to just fix the motherboard or just buy a new laptop instead.

I was told the cost of my laptop motherboard can buy me a new lappy .

Decisions . Decisions .

I really don't know if I should still buy Hewlette Packard or what next.

xx

Anyhow ,

I felt lost lately

& easily exhausted.

xx

I wanted to go out , but part of me felt like just staying home .
It's been like this for a week or so now.

I think I might go out tommorow , or at least this weekend to clear up my mind.

cross fingers problems won't be worser than it is right now .

xx

ciao.

The prettiest thing.

Caught the meteors last night around 12am-1am .
I saw 6 of them , within an hour .
It was really beautiful.
I'm a Gemini myself , the meteors are actually named after the starsign.
The Geminid Meteors Shower.
Most anticipated meteors shower this year.


xx

Am still waiting the pictures for my next blogposts.
Everyone is so busy , so am I.
Decorated the house with X'mas decorations , caroling tonight :)
Listening to David Archuleta's Christmas from the heart album , blissful feeling.
I wish its Christmas now.
Oh did I even mention that I love Latin church masses?
I can't wait to go to one again , like real soon.
The joy of praising and praying in latins.

xx

Tommorow is the day.
Brings up special memories .
The day that , alot of us is looking forward to.
I don't know if I still do , I used to.
Now I don't know anymore.

xx

Off now.

Quidnunc.

To Cynic ,


Love , Optimist.


P.S : Quidnunc ?