Happy Twenty - TEN!

I've made the point , to forgive everyone on this day.
to the ones that hurt me in a way or another.
to the ones that took me for granted .
the ones that ...

& I'm asking for forgiveness .
to the ones that I've hurt .
to the ones that I might have took for granted .
to the ones that I've disappointed in a way or another .
to the ones that I didn't get to say goodbye , or even just be there when you needed me.

just wanted to say , eventhough I may have not showed my presence ,
know that I'll always be there when you need me .

The past .
No matter what , I'm moving on .
I'm determined .

Time to fulfill my other dreams.

The present .
I'm sorry if I can't be who you all want me to be.
(because I don't live for people , I live for myself. )
But , I'll try my best to change myself to be a better me .
A wiser one hopefully as I'm turning 21 .
(This goes particularly to anyone out there , my family - friends .)

Thankful .
for every moment . every events . every happenings .
( even the unexpected ones )

I'm glad it made me a stronger person than who I am today .

Though ,
it wasn't easy to get through this year

& if it wasn't for the people that walked into my life ,
( my family , my friends - you guys know who you are )

I won't be who I am today .

So ,

Thanks for the memories .

I'll treasure them all.

Its time to embark on a new journey .

A new beginning & new chapter of life .

It's been a great year .




Happy twenty - ten everyone !
:)

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to Everyone!

Have a joyful and blessed one!

I know this is a super late greeting :P

anyways ,

HAPPY BOXING DAY TOO!


I've been busy .

Won't be updating till next week I guess .

till then.

Moodswings.

There is always this gap that I'm feeling.

Why are we created differently ,

but not equally the same?

cause if we're all the same , there will be no problems at all?

Have you ever?

Have you ever

felt like you wanted to buy something that cost you a sum of $ ,

yet your heart is so undecisive because you just don't know if its the wrong decision?

I'm facing that kind of problem now .

I'm actually kinda scared to make decisions whenever if concern a large sum of $ .

Moreover , its not from my pocket .

So if anything happens , I will always feel very guilty .

Dilemma for spending so much $ & at times wish that I have a job or actually work right now so that I can use my own $ to buy the things I wanted to buy without feeling bad if anything bad happens to it .

Sighs. Oh well.

xx

Went for laptop hunting today .

I'm still undecided despite going through so many laptops .

The specs and the prices at times confuses me much.

and I don't know whether what I'm going to pay for is it worth the price of what am I buying.

such dilemmas.

I hate to make decisions.

Even the colours of it .

probably will get a new lappy by tommorow .

xx

The White Elegance party @ Bed is tonight .

decided not to go :)

xx

ciao.

Did someone just cursed me or something?

Well I've been trying to blog lately but due to reasons like this :
1) everyone's busy so I couldn't get pictures
2) i just don't feel like going out lately and there's basically nothing much to blog about
3) both my lappy & my desktop crashed . Yesterday.

History 1 .

Lappy crashed more than 4543654 times already , I just dunno whats the problem anymore but I was told that , this time it is the motherboard. I've encountered the same problem since a year ago.

Changed the motherboard a year ago and now the same problem again.

had the lappy for only 2 years now.

Really sucked big time cause I've lots of stuffs in there , which I stupidly didn't save in my portable harddisk . ALL my recent pictures & songs . Kill me already . Sigh .

History 2.

Same goes for my desktop.

Well , I've only used Hewlette Packard all these while but all these problems keep coming in.

Reformatted and fixed gazillion time , now I'm thinking whether to just fix the motherboard or just buy a new laptop instead.

I was told the cost of my laptop motherboard can buy me a new lappy .

Decisions . Decisions .

I really don't know if I should still buy Hewlette Packard or what next.

xx

Anyhow ,

I felt lost lately

& easily exhausted.

xx

I wanted to go out , but part of me felt like just staying home .
It's been like this for a week or so now.

I think I might go out tommorow , or at least this weekend to clear up my mind.

cross fingers problems won't be worser than it is right now .

xx

ciao.

The prettiest thing.

Caught the meteors last night around 12am-1am .
I saw 6 of them , within an hour .
It was really beautiful.
I'm a Gemini myself , the meteors are actually named after the starsign.
The Geminid Meteors Shower.
Most anticipated meteors shower this year.


xx

Am still waiting the pictures for my next blogposts.
Everyone is so busy , so am I.
Decorated the house with X'mas decorations , caroling tonight :)
Listening to David Archuleta's Christmas from the heart album , blissful feeling.
I wish its Christmas now.
Oh did I even mention that I love Latin church masses?
I can't wait to go to one again , like real soon.
The joy of praising and praying in latins.

xx

Tommorow is the day.
Brings up special memories .
The day that , alot of us is looking forward to.
I don't know if I still do , I used to.
Now I don't know anymore.

xx

Off now.

Quidnunc.

To Cynic ,


Love , Optimist.


P.S : Quidnunc ?

Under the sun , thats where I'll be .

Last Sunday was spent at Mamutik Island with Mary , Ivan & my uncle , Maurice after church .
Supposedly was there with a large group of people , but I end up getting a lot of last minute cancellations due to unpredictable weathers and so on and so forth .
Nevertheless , 4 of us had much fun .
Talked alot about ex-Mn's I felt like as if I was part of them :S
The weather was good after so many days of rain , my tan is not golden enough :S
& we end up getting sand flies bites all over our bodies especially my thighs and my arms .
Its so bloody , annoyingly-itchy-compared to chicken pox .

Pictures time , more on FB.





Uncle showing off big belly haha

Ivan!

Mary



my random shots .


saw the hearts?







Hahaha!

:)


Well , this week I've been really busy .

As usual , attended a lot of full moon parties and wedding dinners , and more to come this weekends :S

Went to the dentist yesterday , everything was okay , my next appointment will be in Feb if I can make it.

Whats new?

I dyed my hair auburn gold and am loving it.
Painted my fingernails pink and toenails purple .
I felt so bimbo-ish somehow.

But I guess , its just the Christmas holiday mood that I'm feeling right now.

No pictures yet.

Am expecting a parcel of presents sometime next week , can't wait!

Ok I'm off to do some college stuffs at the office then I'mma gonna meet my relatives from Sandakan . Yays.

She's in denial but she's not denying it .

Oh my it's been ages since I touched this blog .

I've always wanted to blog but just couldn't be bothered :P Now thats a lie .

I've been busy hanging out with people , catching up with lots of unexpected stories ( really dramatic ones ) , well I believed there is always a twists in every stories of our lives .

Basically , training is over for me , now thats left is my untouched report due a month time.
I am basically , am happy to be home , meeting up with the people in my " to meet lists " because its so so long , and am glad that I've met like 50% of them since holidays started ?

But its not easy y'aknow . Everyone is everywhere , coming back from Australia , New Zealands , West & East Malaysia , am happy everyone still as fun as ever after like zomg years ( maybe months ) of not meeting each other .

First of , spent the second last weekends of my time with Mary & Melvyn simply just talking talking & talking! I dunno how but we're like talking robots for as long as it lasted haha . We caught the movie 2012 & A Christmas Carol . Both was good :) oh I forgot , Bruno :S lol

Melvyn & Mary


We had dinner at Bubba Gump during a saturday night I think , it was pouring that night and Mary wanted to have a western dinner , as usual I ordered my Fish & Chips :D

Mary's , Melvyn's & Mine

Something funny and awkward happened that night when I was ordering my drink :P
I wanted to say : give me a Lotsa Lava , instead I went , give me a Lotsa Love!

With that super excited face somemore.

HAHAHA!

The waiter's facial expression changed and Melvyn was like " you lack of love is it? " haha

Shaun came down to KL from NZ for a night on Friday night which was also my last day of training , so basically we met up with him for late dinner and then yumcha at Starbucks and McD till like 3am? Cause he had to catch another plane to Miri at 6am.

Leslie , Shaun , Kelly

Thanks Shaun for the Golden Edition Ferero Rocher & Kiwi Candy :)

After few days , had dinner at Italiannes with Melvyn because Mary left us to KK and this dinner has something to do with my reward or something for being a workhaholic . Bah , I was seriously late I think he's about to kill me when I reached , dinner ends at like 12am that night!


Had Clam soup , Melvyn had speghetti dunno what :P and I had Calzone ( seriously freaking huge , like huge currypuff with meatballs inside ,
couldn't finish them! )

Thanks for the treat btw :)

It was nice spending time with them , met Cass & Melvyn on another night to yumcha at AC after so long , but yikes realised we didn't take pictures :S

had a long night at Jaafar with Loh joining us after that .

The next day , finally I get to meet Denise who finally came back from Maldive , we went to Brussels like finally ( after tempting Loh ) hahaha

Met up with Brian & Edvart .

The big guy

That was till then about KL .

Next is KK .

Saturday , went to Jesselton Point but that place was seriously , I dunno . Every single drinks that we ordered is unavailable , so we decided to go Tj . Aru ( a new place to me ) there is an open space like food court for drinks . Never noticed its there .

Met up with Vigita the future Lawyer ,
Daniel the future Vet , Chan the raising KK blogger aka future Lecturer , , Bev the Muay Thai boxer and Mary my sister :)

Chan

Vigita & Bev

Daniel is always full of expressions

We headed to Ice Bar 1Borneo after that to check out the place , it was sucky .

Mary underage so we had hard time getting her in , I don't see the Ice Bar that supposed to looked like Quattro and it is so small !

End up chilling outside Ice Bar's deck watching football , chit-chat and more shishas for daniel.

I met up with an old friend of mine , Ivan who came back for holidays from NZ like finally after 2 years .

Oh he bought the supposedly phone that I wanted to buy , SE Satio which I waited for quite sometime , nice to play with but is totally not my type of hp anymore so glad I didn't get it.

Thats Ivan behind me !

The next day , went out with Jeremy ( after 1 yr? ) to meet up with Ivan (ya , they knew each other from MN only to meet up through me HAHA ) , Mary , Bev & Esther .

We had lunch at Fish & Co , catching up things with each other . You know those MIRC days stuffs :P

Jeremy tried to point the fork to stop me from taking picture haha , too bad .

It was a late lunch , we were awfully bloated after that so we toured around 1borneo ,
I finally get to see the petshop , been searching for it for quite sometime :S

in the car

We went to Centre Point and Warisan Square too after so long .

Caught New Moon in Growball cinema , the hall 8 - Largest hall and boy that place reminds me of the auditorium in yayasan sabah.

The whole movie was so cheesy , and it got me thinking a lot of things and the ending sucks .

Ivan & I was like laughing most of the time because of the stupidity of somepart of the movie , the reactions from the female audience especially , Jeremy was lost and Mary kept comparing the movie and the book LOL

Had the 32 Oz ice lemon tea I think I was about to get diabetes that day , I was high on sugar the whole day . The drinks I consumed , the amount of sugar . I can't imagine.

After movie , we headed to KK TimeSquare . Again , my first time there .

Had our dinner at Firefly , Bar & Grill . That place is still new , love the environment .

Food was good , reasonably priced . We had sandwiches for dinner because we were still full from late lunch but omgosh the portion was not what we expected .

yummy!


we can't even finish what we ordered , every single plates has its own leftovers.

On Monday night , organised a drinking session @ Cube Restaurant , CTmall .

About 11 of us went , 2 backed out cause too tired from diving .

Fun times , I tell you - Bev Tam is getting married :D main highlight ! haha * joke joke

Denise & Bev! I have to agree with Denise , our ugly fringe haha remembered how we laughed about it the first thing after we saw each other in the car?

Bev Wu! Came from Kuching :D haha that night first thing when I saw her I was like OMG! YOU'RE HERE AGAIN! I MISS YOU AFTER SO LONG!

Ivan Soo! with "bride to be"

Vigita & Chan

Justin is the chairman ...

Kevjumba's expression on Vigita 's face !
Justin is so happy

Mary playing Daniel's Itouch , I was busy looking at the menu and Bev smiling at Denise

we had colouful cocktails .

Vodka is the base to all these drinks .
Pineapple , blue curacao , sprite , lemons are extras.
Others drank juices .

Tried the famous Liu Sa for dessert , the inside is actually butter milk and salted egg yolk , yummy!

& Flambe Ice Cream for dessert! Awesome presentation? thats flame , with a touch of red wine and the vanilla ice cream is inside the square bed crumb like cube.
Hot outside , Cold inside :D

I dunno what are they doing.

Ivan's blur face!

*all points to Bev , she's married :P haha

retards faces of ours .

Mary

Thats all folks , till then .

Can't wait for tonight .




" she's just confused .